And it’s over – handed back my keys, wrote down all the social media passwords and we’ve held our last meetings with the managers. All I have left to do now is enjoy the leavers do and cry.
Well maybe not cry. Or perhaps I will. This has genuinely been the best year of my life: I’ve found myself, I’ve found the people I want to be around and I’ve found the cause I want to fight for. And I’m not sure I’m ready to leave.
I (mis)used my last access to free colour printing to print out pictures, tweets and statuses from the past year – all ready for my scrap book. So many memories, so many times I felt vital and alive. And really – how many jobs are there that make you feel like that? Vital. Alive.
Looking back to who I was just a mere 12 months ago: not really sure of my place in the wider world or how I fit in, not all that confident in presenting, nervous at making friends. Now I am able to walk into a room full of strangers, introduce myself and hold conversations. I can present for twenty minutes with barely any planning. I know what I think and I know how to defend those views. I’ve had to deal with negative press, people who I don’t even represent scrutinising me, loss of engagement, evil management, heartbreak when candidates I campaigned for lost elections (and no I’m not just talking the general elections – though that was heartbreaking too) – but I’ve pulled through.
And I’ve done more than pull through. Looking over my manifesto and being able to tick off every single point on there and much, much more feels amazing. I am so grateful for the support I’ve received and the team I’ve been lucky to have ended up with. People kept saying during handover that we’ve left big shoes to fill and I never believed them. But seeing all the work spread out in front of me – even I don’t know how we managed it. It’s been phenomenal and I just hope the work is built on by the new team, and we grow from strength to strength.
This year has been a grace period before I’ve had to start my graduate scheme in my chosen career path, and in it I’ve been able to get ready. So now when I go in, I won’t get trampled all over, I’ll have strong friends to come back to who can keep me grounded and I’ll be confident in my abilities.
I’m ready. Bring it on, corporate world.