Checked my phone this morning. 07.50. And my taxi is booked for 8. The guys are already in the car waiting.
Repeating subhanAllah over and over and over again I ran around, adrenaline going, brushed my teeth, ironed my shirt (badly), put on the skirt from the night before (alhamdulliah I shower at night so no worries there!), scarf wrapped, socks on, laptop grabbed, face cream into the bag. And I was in the taxi by 8.05.
Great start to the morning.
InshaAllah the rest of the day will be much more relaxed. I have to travel up to a nearby town to help run a workshop but I am all prepped for that. The workload this morning is nice and easy. And my hot desk happens to be very far from my team so I can take my time doing it.
The day before I travelled down from one city to another with the ex-UKIP colleague. It was a beautiful route and although I was struggling to keep my eyes open, I am at least thankful he was doing the driving so I could relax. Regardless, all this travelling is taking its toll. Mix that with my general laziness and lack of motivation, I have been struggling to put into action all my goals.
The fardh prayers have been fine – and being a traveller they have actually been easy (since it is permissible for me to shorten and join them). It is my taraweeh, and reading and memorising the Quran that I have been missing. I usually get back with less than an hour before iftar. Winding down, showering and figuring out what I want to eat gobbles up that time. And before I know it I am just lying there with a few mins before breaking my fast, trying to desperately fill this void that should be filled with focus and to think of some prayers. My prayers feel empty and short-term – focused on the dunya (this world).
I am trying not to loose hope but the days are slipping away and I don’t know if I have improved at all this month. Thinking about it physically hurts my heart.
Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error. Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden like that which You did lay on those before us. Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. You are our Protector. Help us against those who stand against faith.” – Quran 2:286
being woke 
Where do you work? Hope Ramadan is going well for you 🙂
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alhamdulliah ramadan is going well but fast! how’s it going for you?
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I agree it’s flying by!
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Rozas are short here in Aus 🙂
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nice! when do you guys do iftar roughly?
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5pm 🙂
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Omg after we’ve left the EU I am genuinely considering moving over! This is just another reason.
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Do it!!! So what is going on in the UK? I’m not a whizz when it comes to politics. Is it a good or bad thing if UK leaves the EU? What’s the purpose behind all this? 🙂
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It’s such a mess 😦
I personally don’t like the eu but the way we left was purely based on xenophobic and racist rhetoric. Will be a financial disaster which I think is ok if you’re like doing it because you want to be nicer than the EU. But no – our people just want to be hateful 😦
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That sounds awful 😦
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So much wrong is happening in dunya
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hey i work in one of those companies that are contracted out to work for other companies. sorry to sound cryptic but with the amount of trash i sometimes talk about my firm I don’t want to risk any headlines 🙂
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